Why am I up?

So I am for absolutely up for no reason whatsoever, and realized I didn't finish my post from earlier today. There was practice again and yet again, there was the unending urge to go play. If it wasn't for the urge to do a physical activity it was to keep myself warm, neither good reasons however, so of course I just watched. I have discovered it is fun to yell at people for not laying out which makes it slightly withstandable but my being alright with not playing was as real as the word withstandable.

Practice

So I went to practice the other day and was unsure how I do. I can still throw around so that is nice, but there is no escaping how much I want to go out onto the field. It was weird though, since I wasn't playing I was sort of giving advice to people which was awkward because I have only been playing for a year. People were actually taking it to which helped me out with not being able to play, just to know I can help others.

The backstory

I created this blog to talk about the mental challenges that I have been facing. I have been having a hard time coping with the fact that though I have been feeling better, if I run I will hurt myelf. Well let me explain, a couple days ago I was playing ultimate frisbee and pulled/strained my hamstring and was in some immense pain. I was told I would be out for at least a month with it which is quite a blow for someone who actually enjoys getting out and running. I never realized how much I did until I couldn't/ Well I have to go to sleep, and get up early, I should be posting tomorrow morning.